soo its been 20 days & my throats still a little dry when i get up in the morning. anyway aprils been an asshole to me. im screwing myself over with money pretty much. being a girl sucks & shopping is gay. gap is stupid, i hate working & shopping for this damn company. haha, its been a depressing month for me & im glad this month is ending. i think this has been the first time in a long time actually blogging 0___o woops.
all ive been up to is work sleep & gerardo. id admit that i hang out with him more than i do with family, but its not like fams been on my side lately. sounds stupid of me to say since familys always there, blah blah.. yea arnold is, neil is every now & then. i guess you can say its just the parents that have been on me more than usual. ive been brushing it off for a while but on my sisters bday it just exploded =/ baad bad day. so many things were rushing through my head about life & what a big disappointment i am to the world. yeaa the world. when i think about if i were watching myself put on this act like im always happy when i see friends & work especially... i feel like an idiot cause im sounding suicidal or something :P i make these jokes & i start thinking im using jokes as the complete opposite of what im feeling. not all the time.. does that make sense??
other than the negative things in my wonderful life, i went to help out .method. last week for the psp tournament here @ sam boyd :) it was fun, my shoulders got a little burnt but it was fun.
here was their score & teams they played, taken from pspevents.com
Thu 4:12 PM Smart Parts Ballistic 5-2
Thu 5:24 PM Smart Parts PBC-GRIDLOCK 1-5
Fri 8:36 AM Empire FYT 3-5
Fri 9:48 AM Empire Ballerz Brigade 5-1
before the event i met up with maynard & we were talking about our toga party coming up in june :) thats exciting, thats what kind of gets me hyped up cause i know itll eb really fun. i jsut get scared of all the stupid kids getting shit faced & actin a fool in our hotel room. i seriously will kick people out for being annoying. fuckers :)
thats all thats been going on in the past month for me. just a whole bunch of bullshit. tomorrows this stop dui brunch thing @ suncoast so ill see how that turns our. peace out
9:09 PM; peace out!